stand by1. I have not heard from you in about five weeks,I feel like I am missing abouthalf of my self.I cannot sleep,my head clanks against hard pillowsand I can never drink enough waterto clean all this away.2. I called in sick at work againand I lay on an unmade bed watchingthe blinds batter the window frameinto a broken blue. It distracts me from sleepingbut not from the thought ofyou. Outside it is cold, the sky sits sadly,drooping clouds from its shabby fingerslike cotton candy yo-yosand the rain does not fall -but I think it should.3. I cannot find you,are you hiding, in the sleevesof my jumper?The cuffs look bitten and when I close my eyesI can see you inside the cloudy green, listeningwith rolling eyes,as I mumble in poetrythat you are not meant to hear.4. The doctor says I am okay, just a littleInfected - he sent me back to bedand mother keeps leaving tomato soupon a grey tray outside my door, with notesfrom my friendsbut not from
On The BusSitting Here On This Eaten Up ChairI Just Was LookingOr Call It A StareJudging ReallyAs People Got On The BusJudging ReallyAs People Were On The BusGuy Just In Front, Loner Without A CareType That Got BulliedSitting Next To An Empty ChairThe Gangsta At The FrontChecking His ReflectionInside He Was KindFiled In The Wrong SectionGirl To The LeftEar-rings Were Too BigDone Up Like A TartAnd Puffing On Her CigIndian SuitDressed Like A MillionaireConfident LookTwo Million Outfits To WearGuy BehindThe Only One I Couldn't SeeI Had A Funny FeelingThat He Was Judging Me
Don't Tell Me You Know...Don't Tell Me You Know What It's LikeYou don't know what it's likeso don't say that you doyou say that we're alikebut I know it isn't truedon't tell me not to be this waydon't tell me not to crydon't tell me it will be okaydon't say I need to trydon't tell me that you understanddon't tell me that you caredon't say how immature I amor that life just isn't fairI'm so tired of this lifeof wishing and praying constantlythat I leave this knifeand soon they find what's wrong with meI know there's something not right in my headwhen I never want to leave my bedyou don't know what it's like to feel torn apartto feel like someone cut out your beating heartyou don't know what it's liketo go through everydaytrying not to kill yourself,trying not to be this wayI'm so sick of all these pillsnone of them will workon and off so many kindsit's only made me worsedon't tell me I'll grow out of thiswhen it's already been nine yearsdon't tell me when I crythat I'm not crying
As the tears keep falling..Just the thought of not being with you...The thought of not being able to hold you tight...Keeps the tears falling tonightFlowing down like rain from my heartThat feels as though... it might break apart...As it deeply aches for you'Cause all the miles that separate usIs killing me like a mid- October frostI long to be by your side and I can't...As the tears keep falling...Dripping into the glassy pool at the edge of my heartShattering the stillness... the silence withinThat ripples out to create...An ear- splitting sound....One of love... not of hate"I LOVE YOU"Can be heard being shouted...Over and over... again and again...As the tears keep falling...
Break The Habit.Everybody makes a mistake sometimesAnd I'll do anything to set it right'Cause what we have, we'd be fools to let goWe can start over and save tomorrowRewrite the way the story endsIf you'll open your heart againWe could have a happy endingIf you give love a chance to winI know that you were right and I was wrongI hope not all your faith in me is gone'Cause I believe our best is yet to comeAnd I would give you the moon and the sunTo make you feel the way I feelAnd prove to you my love is realI'll make it up to you, I swearI'll show you just how much I careSometimes you've gotta leave the past behindLet it go and please don't turn out the light'Cause you know you're the best thing in my lifeI don't know what happened but it's not alrightI must've lost my mindI'll break the habit tonightI know I hurt you and I'm so sorryI've gotta change and blame it all on meIf you forgive me, I'll do what it takesJust please don't let go 'cause my heart would breakNow our love